Today's topic on
Jenni's blog was something your struggling with... I was going to write about this anyway, so I thought I would share it today.
My biggest internal struggle right now is my weight. I hate the way I feel and look lately. I've always been a "bigger" girl, but right now I'm at the heaviest I've ever been. I've never had a problem with my waist being big. I've always just had big legs and I've been ok with it. Lately all my weight has been going to my stomach and I'm literally disgusted looking at myself in the mirror. I've started buying bigger shirts so it covers up my stomach and find myself "sucking in" all the time.
I love food and I hate working out. Not a good combo right?! But I know I HAVE to do something. So, I've started working out. John bought me the
Polar FT4 and I will say that has helped me get motivated. We have a treadmill at our house so I have no excuse. I've started just fast walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes and I've gradually added in 30 seconds to 1 minute of jogging. If you can even call it jogging - it's more like waddling. But, hey, it's something and it's getting easier every day. The 1 minute long stretches are getting easier and I can do them more often without feeling like my heart is going to beat out of my chest. My mom also added me on their family membership at L.A. Fitness because they could have 4 people on it. Have I been? NOPE! Once I feel more confident on the treadmill and not like I'm going to pass out, I think I will feel more comfortable going to a gym. I want to incorporate classes in, but right now I'm scared.


We have tennis courts in our townhome complex too and we have taken advantage of that on a few occasions. I'd like to do it more to change things up and have some fun while working out. I also have a nice bike I got a few years ago and a bike trail that's very close to our house. John and I need to take advantage of that as well.
{after playing tennis on an unusually cold night a few weeks ago}
As far as working out goes, my goal as of right now is to use our treadmill at least 4 times a week for at least 30 minutes - walking and jogging. Gradually adding in more jogging than walking. And adding in tennis and bike riding on days when the treadmill is just not what I want to do.
And then there's the diet... it's gotta change. No if's, and's or but's. Sweets and carbs are my weakness and I have to change that. I just bought a meal planner notebook from Maybooks so we can start meal planning and finding healthy recipes before going to the grocery store. Hopefully this will get us on track with our diet and help with our grocery budget.
Have any of you struggled with the same thing? How did you get through it? What are some of your motivations to go work out? Any tips you have are greatly appreciated!