Several people asked me about the post I wrote the other day after I posted it. I just want everyone to know, this is not about one particular person, one particular group, etc. Something happened at work on Tuesday that just blew me over and writing that blog about everything that was bothering me was my way of dealing with it instead of sitting on the couch moping and being in a bad mood. I felt better after writing it. That’s what this blog is for; it’s my personal journal and I hope it doesn’t offend anyone. The stuff I talked about in the post is happening around me and it’s stressing me out. I have plenty of other stress in my life right now that I won’t get in to here and I think what happened on Tuesday was just my boiling point. What I talked about was something that had been bothering me for awhile and I think when Tuesday was over, I just needed to vent. So, sorry if I offended anyone, that was not my intention with the post. It was just how I felt at the time and writing about it helped me release those emotions.
Writing this apology or explanation or whatever you want to call it, doesn’t change how I felt though. And, still do feel I guess. I do want to rid myself of people who stir stuff up and do want to change myself. But, what I said about cutting these people out of my life wasn’t right. What needs to happen is I need to be strong enough to not join in the discussions with them, not gossip, not repeat what people say, and walk away if someone says something that I don’t agree with or be strong and tell that person to stop. It's more of something I need to fix on my end rather than someone elses. It’s just as much of a sin to stand there and listen as it is for the words to be coming out of your mouth. So, that’s my goal. That was my point for writing the original post. Now that I’m more calm and not fired up about everything I hope that this post is more of a clear explanation of what was going through my head.