Wednesday, October 20, 2010
3 years ago today
Well, I use this blog as a place to vent, write about my life, what I'm doing, etc.
So, today I'm writing about where I was at 3 years ago today.
3 years ago today, I was supposed to be walking down the aisle, marrying the man who at the time I thought was my soul mate. Look at me now, look how God had totally different plans for me!
Me writing about this doesn't mean that I'm not over it. I absolutely am. It's just weird to look back at how much things have changed over the past 3 years. Part of me can't believe it's been 3 years and part of me feels like it's been way longer than that. I mean, look at me now! It's so funny how you can have every little detail of your life planned out and then God shows you that's not what HIS plans were.
I think I'll always remember October 20th as the day I was supposed to get married. I think a part of me will always think back to the heartache I felt when this day rolls around ever year. However, every year, those thoughts get shorter and smaller and who knows, maybe one day, they'll be completely gone?
I don't know if they will, but when I do have those thoughts, it's just a true testament to me of how God has His plan and there's nothing we can do to fix it, change it or predetermine what it is.
I'm not angry anymore, I'm not sad anymore, I don't regret anything. Things are just they way they are supposed to be and I am truly looking forward to whatever my future has in store!