How do y'all like my new little Wedding Wednesday button? I still have a lot more Wedding Wednesday posts to share with y'all so I thought I would make something cute to go along with it :)
When we first got engaged, I thought fitting into a wedding dress would finally be motivation for me to start shedding these extra pounds.
Then month after month went by and I kept having excuses.
So I got my dress ordered in a bigger size than I wanted, but I loved it, so who cares.
(this is a whole nother story that I'll explain AFTER the wedding, but my wedding dress I tried on in the store originally in March that I purchased was different than the dress that came in....)
So, because my mom hadn't seen the "new" dress on me we went this past weekend to try it on since she was in town.
It should have been a happy feeling, I should have teared up from excitement.
I did not.
All I saw was huge boobs busting out the top of my dress.
I nearly cried from embarrassment. There was no way I would be seen like this on our wedding day.
I'm going to have to share some details of my dress in order to get the point across...
It has a corset back so the tighter she pulled the back, the higher my boobs got. It also has a sweetheart neckline so you can only imagine what kind of mess we were dealing with...
Everyone was trying to tell me it looked good, they wished they had big boobs, I'm just self conscious, etc. Ok, maybe so, but if I don't feel comfortable, how miserable will I be on our wedding day??
Where do we go from here? Do I order a new dress?
Well my mom suggested taking my bra off. If you have big boobs like me, you know that is NEVER an option. I didn't really have any other options so I tried, and it helped.
The corset back helps hold them up ;) but the sweetheart neckline still shows WAY too much cleavage and I know I would be super uncomfortable with that. The dress in the store I originaly tried on was a bigger size so it covered up more. I wish my consultant would have told me the sweetheart wouldn't have been a good idea. But now it's done so what do I do??
I know if I lost 20 lbs my boobs would get smaller. Now I am kicking myself for not starting with this back in January. I could even afford to lose 50 lbs. Image how small my boobs would get then?! haha
So now I have until November 16th which is my final dress fitting to get my ass in to gear and start losing this weight.
Oh and another motivating factor?? Being in a swimsuit for a week in front of 30 family members and friends!! YIKES!!
So, to help me get started. I've gotten back on Weight Watchers.
I lost almost 20 lbs in less than 2 months last year on it so I'm hoping I can do it again.
We also have a treadmill at home so I really shouldn't have any excuses. Even if I walk every day, it's better than nothing. I made a deal with myself that I can't watch Gossip Girl at home unless I'm watching it on the treadmill :)
So my main point of writing this was just to vent and also to keep me accountable. I really hope in November I have a success story to tell y'all...
(this is more of a "holy shit we're getting married on a beach and I have to wear a swimsuit in front of a bunch of people!")
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