"You're going to need help getting pregnant"
Not exactly the words I wanted to hear at my doctors appointment last week.
I know that women struggle with this every single day and this is nothing new, but you never ever think it will be you sitting in your doctors office hearing those words.
I was diagnosed with PCOS in the Summer of 2011. My doctor at that time was horrible so I honestly didn't even know if I should believe her and I ended up finding a new doctor in the Medical Center. I've been seeing him the past 2 years now. My cycles had been regular up until around January of this year and have gradually gotten longer and longer. I finally made an appointment, told him what was going on and I heard the dreaded PCOS again. We talked about mine and John's plans for kids and that's when he said it.
"Because of your age and your PCOS, you are going to need help getting pregnant."
I knew it was a possibility all along, but never wanted to believe it. My biggest fear is not being able to have kids so hearing that was just a punch in the stomach. I've joked with John about being "old" and how we better hurry up and start a family, but didn't anticipate the doctor saying that too. I mean I know 35 is considered 'high risk' but damn, I thought I had 6 more years before a doctor would use 'age.'
We're still in the early stages of figuring everything out. He referred me to a reproductive endocrinologist who I am seeing in November and we'll go from there. They drew a bunch of blood (9 tubes!) but I don't have the results back from that yet. He mentioned starting with Clomid and going from there. He told me that John and I needed to sit down and have a realistic discussion about starting a family because the longer we wait, the harder it's going to get, ultimately leading to IVF or even worse, no kids at all.
Right now, we're taking it day by day and enjoying our time before we have a family. We're also trying not to let it worry us too much until we get the blood results back and meet with the RE. I'm just thankful that I have a doctor that listened to me. I know a lot of doctors would say we needed to try for a year, etc etc, before referring me anywhere. I want to figure out what's wrong NOW, not wait, and he understood that. In fact, the first thing he did was say he was referring me without even letting me ask. I also am SO glad that I decided to move my care to the Texas Medical Center. I know I'll have the highest quality care there!!
I know we have a long way to go but I wanted to do an update for anyone who was wondering after my last post I wrote a few months ago...
And like I said, I know this is something that women deal with every day. That's why I'm putting this out there. I'd love to hear from you if you went through something similar!
So, now we wait until November and see where God takes us. Ultimately it's His plan that we have to trust and follow.