I try to to be strong and find positive in every day and then I log in to facebook and there's another pregnancy announcement, I get on IG and there's another picture of a baby, I get on blogger and there's another weekly bump date from someone or I turn my phone on and there's a text about something baby related. I can't escape it. I try to be happy for these people who I know have prayed for babies, but it's so hard. I especially have a hard time when people complain about things that I wish I had. The heartburn, the weight gain, the stretchmarks, the endless trips to the bathroom... some people would kill for that stuff (me) and then there are people complaining about it. It's hard.
What I've found is social media is the main source of my problems so I think it's time to step away. Not delete it but spend less time there so I can not see those things that hurt so often. And really focus on what I do have and the positives that are in our life.
I've seen alot of people doing this 100 Happy Days Challenge. I think this might be something I NEED to do. Even though it is on social media, I think finding something in every day that I can take a picture of to be happy about and thankful for can really help my attitude. I am all registered and my 100 day challenge will start today. The hashtag I will use on Instagram is #savanahs100happydays.
I hope this will help me get out of my funk and focus on the positives. I know that one day I'll have the desires of my heart and all this sadness will be in the past.